experience of art

Pay attention to what matters

 For the sake of art

struggling with weaknesses

There are moments when much is little, little is enough and more isn't worth it.
The wind blows my face, i feel its soft touch on my skin, i took a deep breath and realize life is still beautiful, even if i have experienced so much ugliness. But what if i didn't say yes, if one word didn't put me on this ugly journey, one journey that affects everyone around me.
It feels like this journey is the same or narrower than the narrow road the bible talked about. I feel so alone even if doctors and my family say we in it together.
I sometimes feel like killing myself to save me from this endless journey of pain and lonliness to save me from this thorn. But if i do, what happens to this breeze that sweeps across my face, this breeze that reminds me of the beauty of the world this breeze that makes me i can finish this journey with smile on  my face.
I have to own this moment, i have to finish this journey, i have to turn this ugliness into pure beauty that comes with happiness and smiling.

its deep in thought

sometimes we want that moment to ourselves, we want to share our thoughts but with no one, we want to sit down and break down every little feeling and thought. They call it "alone" i call it whatever, i need this time, i feel this space, i owe it, i remain what makes me happy,i discover it, i cherish it.....all this happened because i had a moment to myself.